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Checking in [Oct. 9th, 2009|05:36 pm]
Angelic Fruitcake
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-I might be buying a 'new' bike tomorrow. I'll need it for when my bus card from school runs out. Apparently there is no program for free or discounted bus passes from the unemployment folks. Eugene's small enough. I'll do with the bike, scraping together change when it's really cold or raining, and walking.

-Got more books from the library on one of the tests I need to take. Will do the practice exam tonight.

-Feeling positive about things overall

-Finally reach a live person at TWO of the places I want to volunteer with: Big Brothers/Big Sisters and Habitat for Humanity. Maybe with Habitat I'll learn some skills along the way. Still waiting to hear back from arts places. And from Planned Parenthood for volunteering.

-Working still on getting back to writing regularly. I may have to read more first input/output and all that. I have a huge TC Boyle book of stories. I love his stuff. I'll start there and see if it inspires anything or just makes me bummed for not having his gift.

-Inspired by a friend, I want to come up with an outline for something to write during November NaNoWriMo. Just for myself -- to see if I can do it this year.

-Just stuck to online searches for jobs thus far. Will hit the ground running this coming week, going to temp agencies. When I arrived here, I signed up with five or six. I checked back with them each week religiously. It's how I found the job I had for three years. This time, I don't wanna just take it because it's there. I want it to work with me and for me and my goals...

-The sulk is over. I'm enjoying the free time, really.
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Writer's Block: Who's your BFF? [Oct. 4th, 2009|03:24 pm]
Angelic Fruitcake
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Who is your oldest friend (i.e., the friend you have known the longest)? How often do you see or talk to each other? Do your close friends tend to stay the same year after year or change over time?

That would be my friend E, who lives in Dallas. I believe I've known her since we were in 4th or 5th grade. I talk to her now and then on the phone and sporadically chat with her online. I don't think I change friends often, really. I just add some new ones. Slowly. When I feel close enough to them, I try not to let them get away if I can help it.
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Had to drop my classes. [Oct. 2nd, 2009|02:46 pm]
Angelic Fruitcake
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That was more disappointing than the job loss. Good news is that I'll likely have next term paid for. And that I'll have lots of time to put in with volunteer stuff between job hunts. It's nearly 12% unemployment here, so I'm just going to do what I can.

I really do think that I'll be able to have the test fees waived. And now I don't have to worry about scheduling them around a job. Yeah.

I'm hoping my computer holds on for a few more months. Of course, I can go to the library. But that's only for an hour at a time. I guess this is as good a time as any to fight my writer's block.

I'm allowing myself the weekend to sulk. Thanks for being patient.
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Well. Alright then. [Sep. 30th, 2009|03:05 pm]
Angelic Fruitcake
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I've been laid off. We got a fat final check with an extra week on it. It's been post-dated to tomorrow so I can't cash it yet. I knew something was coming. And I was accurately prescient about the layoff.

I feel bad for my supervisor. She just bought a house. She was so upset. A lot of folks were crying. I was numb. I felt it coming. I guess I don't have to worry about being late to work tomorrow because of my classes. There is no work tomorrow. Wow. I'm multitasking and filling out my unemployment online. I suppose at this point I'll qualify for food stamps as I won't be making 'too much'. I'll have to do that Friday. Tonight, I have to finish reading and homework. Two papers due tomorrow.

I also have to do my run. I do some nice thinking on my run, so I'm hoping to get that in after the reading and before writing the paper. I don't have a printer. I'll print them at school before class tomorrow.

Wow. I don't even know what to make of it all. I'll look for a gig, but I don't know what will fit around my schedule now. We'll see. And unemployment will also leave a lot of time to study for the Praxis, Praxis II and the OR skills tests that I'll need to have done by February. I wonder if I'll be able to have the fees waived as I'm not working right now. I have to keep my head in the game and look forward.
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Tuesday check in this week. [Sep. 29th, 2009|05:53 pm]
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-First day of classes went well. Both teachers seem very funny and passionate. I've got Intro to Lit (to refresh myself) and Gender and Literature. I'm waiting to see if I can officially get into the Gender and Lit class this Thursday. Got the reading material anyway.

-Still doing the running. Since school started, I can use their treadmill tomorrow for my walk/run.

-Lots of reading and two short papers due this coming Thursday. First day was PACKED. A lot of work. I'm excited, though.

-We had a mandatory meeting last week. We have another one tomorrow. There were worries about one of our largest clients not renewing their contract. There would be layoffs if they don't renew. Pathetic in this time where people are stressed about no jobs, but I hope that I do get laid off. I wonder if that's what this surprise mandatory meeting is about.

-Things are going well. I'm hoping that these classes spur me to write. I haven't completed anything. Ever. I want to at least get back into regular writing, whether I complete anything or not.

-Still trying to arrange for volunteer work. No one gets back to me! Gahh. Seriously, you'd think they'd want the help. Oh, well.

That is all for now.
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Tuesday check in this week. Moving forward... [Sep. 15th, 2009|06:23 pm]
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-I'm back on insurance. It best be permanent this time.

-I may actually be able to get financial aid this term. It will be the last term I'll get it -- until I get into a program. But since I didn't get it last spring, I just may get it now. This will be an unbelievable financial help.

-Unfortunately, the classes I want are all full now after the fighting to get stuff together. I was told to go the first day anyway and see if we get a no show or drops the first week. I will also write to the teachers and see what they can do, if anything, to get me in.

-I am pleased with a lot of things in my personal life and frustrated with others. Working on clearing that up and making decisions. But I'm more pleased than not, so that's me being ahead of the game, no?

-I have been letting things rattle me at the job that normally wouldn't. I'm realizing it's because in my heart, I'm gone already. I am just. Not. There. I'm already looking to next summer and beginning the teaching program. But I can't let that stop my from doing the day to day things and hanging in there to finish what I need to so that I can get INTO the program.

-I have not been great with the budget thing, but I'm trying to just reign myself back in rather than beat myself up and cause more comfort spending. I'll get there.

-I am sending good thoughts to those of you on my list who are needing it. And even those who don't. I really do think of you when I'm not here. Be well!
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Checking in [Sep. 8th, 2009|06:02 pm]
Angelic Fruitcake
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-I found out I still have time to take the three tests needed to apply for teaching. Just working on finding out the costs.

-I've called the nearby high school about volunteering. Waiting for a call back.

-I killed my Myspace account and am pleased with how little it's bothering me.

-I am...daunted by how much planning it takes to not eat out. And am trying to find easy (easy, super easy) recipes so that I can get over how very stressful it can be, watching mofos eat burgers and delivered pizza all around you at work while you whip out a PB & J. No, not even that I necessarily want some. Just feeling on the outs and have folks look at me when I say "No, saving money. Sorry." As if it's a foreign concept. Yep. I'm looking at allrecipes.com -- just saying. It's daunting when you've never cooked for yourself. I'll get there. And I'm considering ordering a paper or buying just on Sundays to get coupons to try to plan things out for the week...

-I am working on a budget that I can live with so that I can leave the plastic at home. I want to spend what I allow myself on =doing= something rather than buying fast food out of a need for comfort. And no more coffee drinks unless I'm out with another person. That's like drinking alcohol alone. It's sad. Especially when we =have= a coffeemaker at home, glaring at me for not using it.

-Deferring my student loans. Again. I met a guy who, with his lady, paid for his house in three years because he hates debt and his parents set a bad example, going into bankruptcy several times and still spending on electronics and clothes. He said: "It wasn't bad. No TV, no car, and no credit cards. And we had fun. It was just free fun." When they went to their favorite Chinese restaurant, the owner remembered them. She wondered why she hadn't seen them. They explained and she said: "Congratulations! I didn't think Americans could do that." She gave them a small break on their dinner and a glass of wine for each of them. He's my budget inspiration guy. This debt thing is getting old. And I don't even have a car. I'm working on finding budget stuff that works for me.
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No forgiveness necessary [Aug. 24th, 2009|10:46 am]
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"Pay no attention to the faults of others, things done or left undone by others. Consider only what by oneself is done or left undone."
-Buddhist Quote

I took this quote with me to work to keep me from getting annoyed. I don't have a life outside work and the goings-on there can weigh on me more than they should. It actually helped. I thought 'forgiveness' when I read it. But I don't see it that way now. In fact, it's almost the opposite. It's about not needing forgiveness. It's about building yourself.

I don't think, when you're trying to live by your own ethics and making an effort to be upfront and honest, that there is anything that =needs= to be forgiven. The more I read it, the less I see a disconnect with western and eastern philosophy. In fact, in my measly heart and mind, I find a strong correlation with this quote and the ideas in Voltaire's "Candide", i.e.: tend your own garden and respect the gardens of others.

I could be wrong, of course. But that's what I see. Or it could be that I'm tired of hearing the words "I'm sorry" come out of my own mouth for things I don't feel I need to apologize for.

With that, I'm back. I'm making an effort to organize time. I'm making an effort to lose things that have proven to be of no use anymore. I'm looking to update and catch up with y'all at least each Monday. Wish me luck.
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Now you have it, now you don't... [Jul. 21st, 2009|11:16 am]
Angelic Fruitcake
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A message was left on my phone this morning. It turns out that even though I have increased my hours to the required amount to be eligible for insurance; and even though I've filled out the forms and was =told= that I'm now on the insurance -- surprise! I'm not. And won't be until January. Nice.

Good thing I'm taking a class this fall. When you're at school, you can go to their health care center for free. It's also a good thing I haven't made another appointment anywhere. I'm grateful for the good health so far. I'm nervous if I DO need to go in for anything. I'm still paying off the price for having the tubes put in my ears.

I feel no shame whatsoever at applying for different jobs. And the only -- the ONLY -- reason they will get a two week notice is because I don't want to screw my coworkers over. OK. I just had to vent. There are happy things, too. I had a fabulous time at the wedding and will do a post on that after our mandatory meeting later today ::eye roll::
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Drive by [Jul. 17th, 2009|11:09 pm]
Angelic Fruitcake
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1. The Sicilian gets married tomorrow. I get to be there!

2. I have the craziest co-workers ever. And I wish to get out and have a drink with one in particular. He makes me laugh until my stomach hurts.

3. I'm getting more and more nervous about having nothing saved in case there's a mass lay-off at the job. I'm actually coming up with a budget. And I want to join a CSA for fresh food.

4. I am bald. I can't stop rubbing my own head.

5. I'm wondering how much the tuition hike will be at school. I'm gonna take one class at a time, but I'll have to pay in installments. I'll have to write my intended teacher and check the website.

I know I've been sporadic in the posting lately. I'm working on getting the computer issue solved. And for what it's worth, the community I've grown here has been sustaining me through my silence and decision-making. I love y'all and this is the only online 'social networking' thingie I plan to keep around after I'm 40. So there! <3
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