October 9th, 2009

Coffee Squirrel

Checking in

-I might be buying a 'new' bike tomorrow. I'll need it for when my bus card from school runs out. Apparently there is no program for free or discounted bus passes from the unemployment folks. Eugene's small enough. I'll do with the bike, scraping together change when it's really cold or raining, and walking.

-Got more books from the library on one of the tests I need to take. Will do the practice exam tonight.

-Feeling positive about things overall

-Finally reach a live person at TWO of the places I want to volunteer with: Big Brothers/Big Sisters and Habitat for Humanity. Maybe with Habitat I'll learn some skills along the way. Still waiting to hear back from arts places. And from Planned Parenthood for volunteering.

-Working still on getting back to writing regularly. I may have to read more first input/output and all that. I have a huge TC Boyle book of stories. I love his stuff. I'll start there and see if it inspires anything or just makes me bummed for not having his gift.

-Inspired by a friend, I want to come up with an outline for something to write during November NaNoWriMo. Just for myself -- to see if I can do it this year.

-Just stuck to online searches for jobs thus far. Will hit the ground running this coming week, going to temp agencies. When I arrived here, I signed up with five or six. I checked back with them each week religiously. It's how I found the job I had for three years. This time, I don't wanna just take it because it's there. I want it to work with me and for me and my goals...

-The sulk is over. I'm enjoying the free time, really.
Coffee Squirrel

Writer's Block: The one that got away

Do you believe in the concept of a soulmate? Do you think you've met him or her? Do you ever worry that "the one" got away?

Long answer: I'm conflicted. I can't even conceive of that for myself. Call it self-esteem issues, call it cynicism, whatever. If I'm proven wrong later, I'm proven wrong. I've seen it: my grandparents were married until she died. Don't know the ins and outs or how good it was day-to-day for each of them, but they loved each other. I think that there are those inclined to make the 'choice' of a soulmate and fight to the end to make it work. I believe that the Sicilian loves his new wife and will go through hell before letting anything screw up his marriage -- and before admitting defeat if that something that's screwing it up is within the marriage.

Short answer: No. I'm happy to be proven wrong. And would not be unhappy to be proven right.

As to the next: If they do exist in the way most feel they do, I don't think I've met them. Or those I've met haven't 'grown into' soulmate status. I don't worry about 'the one' who got away. By definition of 'soulmate' they wouldn't have 'gotten away', right? And there's always another 'one' that might fit. No disrespect to those who've chosen to believe such.