June 5th, 2007

Coffee Squirrel

Things that must change

Things that must change if I'm to make it all the way through this schooling thing (which is getting further and further away):

1. I really enjoy being a student. I need to get to a place where that is priority and not stressing about whether I make it to work on time and who will show up and how crappy a day it will be. I need to use the hell out of the insurance for a few things: glasses, getting teeth cleaned, a couple of prescriptions, two specific health issues, etc. Then I have to consider just talking with someone (WHO?) about budgeting and figure out a way to deal with less and get more involved at school. I have a 'meeting' with a lady at work. She knows I'm unhappy there and that if it weren't for The Sicilian, Sugartits and the insurance, and needing rent money, I would have been gone ages ago. Not sure what she wants to meet about since I asked about possibly changing schedules and already got a no. :(

2. Between Spring and Summer Terms, I need to come up with a mind-blowingly good essay that I can tweak and rearrange every now and then and apply for as many scholarships as possible. I just haven't had time, but I realize I must MAKE time or nothing will happen.

3. I want my work-a-day job to be incidental. I want to be able to leave work at work and not wonder if I screwed up, if I take a day off for my own mental health, will I be anally reamed for rent or bills. I don't want to go into the office already tense. I wind up with huge headaches and taking it home in my tightly wound muscles. Need massage badly.

4. I want to be able to attend a couple of groups at school. Clubs at school are free. If I worked less and were able to join the BSA,go to the Women's Center a lot (the two times I did go, they were helpful as far as info. There just isn't a lot of financing unless one is IN a nursing program already). I also want to start a Pagan group.

5. Make strides to be sure I'm attending properly to those who are near me, make time for me and care for me.

There. Five's a good number. Five goals for the immediate future.

Exunt. Off to class. I'm late. We have a guest speaker on Death and Grief in Psychology.  Should be neat.