||[Jan. 5th, 2005|06:13 pm]
it's tiring to deal with things. i kinda don't want to anymore. i overheard some guys here at school saying that it's minnesota law that if you're under five feet you're considered disabled. perhaps i should just sit at home, watch TV and collect disability and keep files on people...i'm going to have to google that and see if it's true.
yes, television is stupid. but i'm not too judgemental about folks that watch it. especially since i've got no social outlet. it makes me feel as if i'm having some sort of connection with the world. and in a way i am: whatever i'm watching, a few million others are watching, too. television doesn't mind that i'm socially awkward. it doesn't assume my intelligence by the fact that i'm watching it.
i've worked hard. i've been on survival mode. it would be nice to thrive a little. or at least take a break from treading water. i'm 34. i've got a college degree, but i can't get out of this financial, career, and social void. we'll see if i can make a go of eugene...